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Finding the right words to start a blog post is usually one of the hardest things in blogging. Actually, collecting your thoughts and mixing them to create a sensible entry IS the hardest of all.

I haven’t had the time or the internet connection to update my blog regularly. Deadlines of projects and exams were also another factor why no new posts can be seen in my site often. I guess the rarity of filling in my blog was one of the reasons why its traffic has decreased dramatically in the past few days — or weeks I guess.

You could see in the bottom left of the page the rank of my website in Topblogs.com. From 200, I am now ranked at 538. I admit, the decreasing traffic of my blog and being in the bottom is breaking my heart. It took me months to move my ranking from 500 to 200, and it only took days for it to fall back to the 500s again.

How I Will Be Spending My Summer

Lots of things have been running on my mind lately, but I was too lazy to jot them all down because I was indulging myself with the week long vacation before summer school starts again.

That’s one of the price I have to pay for neglecting my studies in the early part of my college life. I admit, it was my fault that I won’t be graduating this April. The sunflowers are now starting to grow along the University Avenue and it won’t be long until they bloom their sunny bright flowers signifying that graduates would soon be marching up the stage to get their certificates. Well, technically they still won’t be getting their certificates, because it takes a long time for the university to process them (Yeah. That’s UP alright!).

I have to spend my summer studying Chemistry and spending my whole day inside a classroom and in a laboratory. It sucks, right? I have to deal with Quantitative Chemistry and just be done with it.

These past few days were spent on sleeping, playing computer games, reading books and more sleeping. Aside from doing the articles that I have to accomplish by the end of the day (the compensation’s okay, I guess), I have nothing else to stress about.

What saddens me the most is knowing that most people that I knew back in high school have already graduated college and some of them are even going to Medical schools already. Most of my block mates and college friends will be graduating this April and here I am, stuck in the College of Engineering, praying hard and doing my best just so I can graduate in a few years time. Shifting in another course in my 4^th year is another letdown that I had to accept and cope with. But I must say that I don’t
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