Stupid, Stupid, Stupid ME

I’m still in a state of shock — I can’t believe a person as nice as him could do this to me. And how could I let myself get soooo stupid by waiting for something what would never happen? Of praying and hoping for a miracle that is next to impossible to happen?

I still can’t believe how he could pretend (or maybe he isn’t pretending) that nothing really happened between us. I can’t get over the fact that it took him only a short period of time to forget that I was still here waiting…

I hate myself for getting mad at him, knowing that I don’t even have any rights to be angry. I hate this feeling of frustration, anger, jealousy, insecurity and regret all mixed together. This is too much for me to handle.

And yes. It was stupid of me to fall for a guy like him.

 *allergy relief? i hope this is as easy as that :S