Stupid, Stupid, Stupid ME

I’m still in a state of shock — I can’t believe a person as nice as him could do this to me. And how could I let myself get soooo stupid by waiting for something what would never happen? Of praying and hoping for a miracle that is next to impossible to happen?

I still can’t believe how he could pretend (or maybe he isn’t pretending) that nothing really happened between us. I can’t get over the fact that it took him only a short period of time to forget that I was still here waiting…

I hate myself for getting mad at him, knowing that I don’t even have any rights to be angry. I hate this feeling of frustration, anger, jealousy, insecurity and regret all mixed together. This is too much for me to handle.

And yes. It was stupid of me to fall for a guy like him.

 *allergy relief? i hope this is as easy as that :S

Emo girl needs a vacation.. NOW!

Hiling (ny Silent Sanctuary)

Minsan di ko maiwasang isipin ka
Lalo na sa t’wing nag iisa
Ano na kaya balita sayo
Naiisip mo rin kaya ako

Simula nang ikaw ay mawala
Wala nang dahilan para lumuha
Damdamin pilit ko nang tinatago
Hinahanap ka parin ng aking puso
Parang kulang nga kapag ika’y wala

(Chorus)
At ihiling sa mga bituin
Na minsan pa sana ako’y iyong mahalin
Ihiling kahit dumilim
Ang aking daan na tatahakin
Patungo…

Ala ala mong tinangay na ng hangin
Sa langit ko na lamang ba yayakapin
Nasan kana kaya, aasa ba sa wala

(Chorus)
At ihiling sa mga bituin
Na minsan pa sana ako’y iyong mahalin
Ihiling kahit dumilim
Ang aking daan na tatahakin
Patungo sa iyo, patungo sa iyo

Bridge: (bridge ba tawag d2? hehe ewan)
Ipipikit ko ang aking mata dahil
Nais ka lamang mahagkan
Nais ko lamang masilalayan
Kahit alam kong tapos na
Kahit alam kong wala ka na…

(Chorus)
At Hihiling sa mga bituin
Na minsan pa sana ako’y iyong mahalin
Hihiling kahit dumilim
Ang aking daan na tatahakin
Patungo sa iyo, patungo sa iyo

*** okay. enough with the emo crap. What I need right now is lots and lots of rest… And a vacation maybe. 

Hmmmm. what about taking a break in one of those miami south beach hotels? Now that sounds like fun ;D

20 days til christmas!!!!

Last night, it occurred to me that we only have a week left ‘til Indakan… And we still haven’t finished our routine yet. We only have 4 weekends left, and a week to polish the steps and the blockings. And to top everything off, I have 3 exams before the competition in which one of them is during Indakan day itself.

I’ve never felt this stressed before. I barely have enough time to sleep, and I can’t give 100% of my effort in studying. I’m taking up ES12 and ES13 together, which means major suicide. T_T

I’m getting thinner (geez! Finally! And take note: I was able to achieve this without the help of weight loss pills. LOL), I’m stressed out and my poor memory is not even of any help nowadays. Because I am always tired and don’t get enough rest, I keep on forgetting things: what I have to do, homeworks, where I place my things and the like.  The fact that my laptop is still in the service centre isn’t of any help either. I’m having a hard time studying and solving book problems, and I JUST MISS PICHU SOOOOO MUCH that I asked my sister to scold the people there for making me wait for almost a month for my laptop to get fixed.  There. My excuse for not writing sensible blog entries lately.

*Sigh* I can’t wait for Christmas vacation… Though honestly speaking, I still don’t feel the Christmas spirit they’re all talking about — despite the cold breeze that we could all feel not only during the evening but also during noon time. Howell. We still have like what? 20 days ‘til Christmas! Yey! I’ll post my wishlist soon!

Oooohhhh… Can i just relax for a while? Please?

I miss having the time to do my nails. 

I miss being petix.

I miss relaxing.

I miss 8 hours of sleep.

I miss my purple nails. 

P.S Hahaha. Wag ng pansinin ang pic please? mukha akong haggard diyan.