Fine.. I’ll study nao

I lost the drive to study for my ES13 final exam tomorrow. I need to get 87% in the exam in order to pass the course — and in all honesty, I find that impossible to happen.

I am confident that I’m going to pass my major subjects and electives this semester, and ES13 is the only thing that’s keeping me from obtaining a GWA that is high enough to get me into the College Scholars’ list. And it’s really, really getting me frustrated.

The funny thing is, he got an 87 in his board exam, and I need to get an 87 in my exam to pass. LOL. My class number is 23, and it’s a number that I consider significant for the two of us. =)) okay, I know I’m assuming.

So anyway, it’s been a long time since the last time I mentioned him or wrote anything about him.

Regarding on the waiting for him to come back part? I am not utterly positive about it either. I’m happy for him, yes… But I feel like I have never been on the list of his priorities; he never had the guts to fight for what he felt; he pushed me to someone whom he thought I’d be happy being with (on the contrary, I was mentally, emotionally and physically tortured being with that person); and I am feeling less and less significant in his life as the months pass by. But whatever his decision maybe, I am going to be happy for him… Even if it means sacrificing my own happiness for that.

Okay. Scratch the last part. I’m being pathetic again.

So anyway. I’ll get back to reviewing for my exam. T_T Wish me luck. I’ll need it.