just for the sake of taking it

I took the exam this afternoon not because I am still hoping in passing the course but rather, I took it just for the sake of taking the effin’ exam.

I reviewed the weekend before the test, and I diligently did the homework our professor gave us. But the mere thought of needing to ace the 5^th long exam and to get 70% in the finals just pulled me deeper and deeper in desperation and hopelessness. 

Howell. There’s always the next sem, but that would also mean another heart wrenching, depressing and totally annoying 5 in my transcript. =(