Bern goes to Bicol

BERN goes to BICOL!!! =)

I will be spending my sembreak in Naga, doing nothing but pigging out and sleeping. (DEFINE BATUGS).

I had fun last saturday night. It seemed like ages since the last time I saw him.

Seafood Island Galore

 I am very much excited to eat at Seafood Island tomorrow!

HURRAH for SEAFOOD! And though i am recovering from a recent food poisoning incident (hmmmm…) i am preparing my tummy for  a sumptuous meal tomorrow evening. Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha.

 And i am scared at the same time. It’s been long since the last time i saw him or talked to him and i know that tomorrow would be filled with awkward moments (hopefully not naman).

And… I am scared of what he might or might NOT tell me.  But then, i’ll just enjoy his company. Yes. I admit i missed him so much and i am not REALLY sure if the feeling’s mututal  

Howell. 

photo courtesy of Maki Eduardo

On business insurance

The aftermath Ondoy left our country men crippled and devastated. Many properties were destroyed, cars washed away by the floods, and businesses damaged by the waist-high (and even higher) water.

I’m not really sure if all these damages caused by a natural calamity are covered by insurances.  I tried researching on business insurance and other insurances as well but because i’m too lazy to read the articles, my question was left unanswered. LOLz. I can’t help but think on how people would pay for their new cars who were destroyed by the flood.

And OMG. Another super typhoon is coming our way. Is there no end??!

IISA LAMANG .. Lolz

Dear Berenice,
Here is your single’s love horoscope
for Thursday, October 22:

Nope — your romantic possibilities aren’t shrinking. It’s really more of a transition phase. Just hang in there while the next wave of eligible bachelors and bachelorettes builds momentum. You’ll be inundated with dates in no time flat.

I don’t want other guys. ISA LANG. 

And I thought things will be back to normal after the tedious review for his board exam — but I assumed wrong. Instead, I feel the gap between us is growing bigger and the distance gets harder and harder to cross. I don’t if it’s just me, or if this is really what he wants me to feel?

It’s like we’re back at square one. He’s this ‘suplado’ guy who won’t bother texting me because he doesn’t really know me and I have to be the one to text first just to get his attention.

It’s like going through the process of uncertainty and fantasies all over again.

We’re total strangers once again.

Okay. Total EMO post. BACK To WORK BERN!

My kind of guy :)

If you’re a guy - post this as “my kind of girl”
If you’re a girl - post this as “my kind of boy”

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
‘pwede din PLUS points un =)

2. Smart?
hmmmm… he’s smart. DEFINITELY haha

3. Preferred age?
older than me. Mga 2-3 years?

4. Preferred height?
Taller than me. My height’s 5′7 BTW.

5. How about sense of humor?
This is very essential.

6. How about piercings?
One is enough. I don’t want him to have more piercings than me.

7. Accepts you for who you are?
YES

8. Pink hair?
as long as carry niya

9. Mushy or no?
In between

10. Thin or fat?
  Thin. ? no. HOT!

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
doesn’t matter

12. Long hair or short hair?
short. clean cut

13. Plastic or metal?
what’s this suppose to mean?

14. Smells good?
of course

15. Smoker?
NO

16. Drinker?
Slight.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
suure

18. Muscular?
Hotness =))

19. Plays piano?
another plus point for me

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
pwede

21. Plays violin?
awwww… pwede ba?

22. Sings very good?
para may tga kanta ako bago ako matulog

23. Vain?
wag lang mas vain sakin )

24. With glasses?
don’t care

25. With braces?
=)

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on funshots and french fries

I KFCd myself right after my exam. I satiated my hunger with my much-craved-for fun shots and fries. I left the theatre with still 30 minutes to spare because my stomach was already grumbling in protest. I wasn’t able to eat lunch because I came to Engg just in time for my exam, and had to rush to my next exam right after the first one. I didn’t even have the time to browse through my notes before entering the exam room.

I already surrendered in defeat last Friday. After finding out how much I needed to get to pass the subject, the first thing that came into my mind was how impossible it was for me to get a score that high. So I lost the drive to study, and my brain was just saturated with too much information that it came to a point that I would stare at the same paragraph for 10 minutes, trying to comprehend it. I took the exam unprepared, and I stared at my exam paper for like 30 minutes before starting. And while I was shading letters in vain, I was thinking how stupid it was for me to go there when I don’t even know a single thing about the exam. I was regretting why I even tried.

The weird thing is, I didn’t even cry. I don’t even feel like crying. I lost the fight just like that — I don’t even have the right to say that I TRIED.

I ate dinner alone, contemplating on how I would tell my parents of the foreboding SINGKO on my TCG.

Haaaaayyy.

Bloom

My father is getting old. 

His hobby nowadays? Growing plants. He has a green thumb, you know.  We were never able to grow a flowering plant in our garden, and orchids don’t get the chance to bloom and usually wither. But now? They all have buds that will blossom soon with the patience and care my dad’s giving them My father’s getting addicted to spraying fertilizer on the plants every weekend (and i’m afraid they’ll get overdosed and die), and he can’t wait to renovate our lanai. He’s planning on getting patio cushions and chairs, and moving all the orchids there.

 Pictures to be uploaded soon

Sorry for the super ’sabaw’ and non-sense post. I’m too tired to think. I think most of my brain cells died during my ES13 exam this afternoon. 

Fine.. I’ll study nao

I lost the drive to study for my ES13 final exam tomorrow. I need to get 87% in the exam in order to pass the course — and in all honesty, I find that impossible to happen.

I am confident that I’m going to pass my major subjects and electives this semester, and ES13 is the only thing that’s keeping me from obtaining a GWA that is high enough to get me into the College Scholars’ list. And it’s really, really getting me frustrated.

The funny thing is, he got an 87 in his board exam, and I need to get an 87 in my exam to pass. LOL. My class number is 23, and it’s a number that I consider significant for the two of us. =)) okay, I know I’m assuming.

So anyway, it’s been a long time since the last time I mentioned him or wrote anything about him.

Regarding on the waiting for him to come back part? I am not utterly positive about it either. I’m happy for him, yes… But I feel like I have never been on the list of his priorities; he never had the guts to fight for what he felt; he pushed me to someone whom he thought I’d be happy being with (on the contrary, I was mentally, emotionally and physically tortured being with that person); and I am feeling less and less significant in his life as the months pass by. But whatever his decision maybe, I am going to be happy for him… Even if it means sacrificing my own happiness for that.

Okay. Scratch the last part. I’m being pathetic again.

So anyway. I’ll get back to reviewing for my exam. T_T Wish me luck. I’ll need it.

Horoscope for today

Dear Berenice,
Here is your single’s love horoscope
for Saturday, October 17:

Some people are difficult to figure out, but don’t let that turn you off. After all, you love a challenge. Don’t let a little aloofness deter you. In fact, you’ll appreciate this person so much more because you’ve had to work for it.

Oh yuuhh.. I don’t get him. 

Blemish slemish

   one sister of mine is complaining on the increasing blemishes and pimples that are appearing on her face.

During the last day of the bar operations 2 weeks ago,she kept on asking me on the best acne treatments available in the market. She was whining and restless and kept on complaining on how ugly she is. (see photo and comment if she’s ugy or not). I kept on assuring her that she’s not ugly and all she needs is enough rest and to stop stressing out on things  so that zits would stop appearing on her face. I even recommended beauty products such as Pond’s whitening creamand i even told her that Jiao Li (a chinese facial cream) worked on me. 

Di’ba she’s pretty naman? =)

Happy

I just have to  blog this… BADLY.

 HE PASSED THE BOARD EXAM.

and i am so happy for him. =)

love horoscope for today

Dear Berenice,
Here is your single’s love horoscope
for Thursday, October 15:

Today is a great day to put your details for the perfect date into action. Grab your crush and head out on the town for a night to remember. Be flexible if things don’t go as planned. And remember to have fun!

 I promised to take him out on a date if he passes the board exam — and i am pre-tty confident that he’ll ace the exam. What i’m not sure of actually is if he still wants to see me. i don’t feel that important anymore.

Deprived of Ambition

Whenever I hear the word equestrienne, the face of Mikee Cojuangco would pop into my mind. 

She started riding horses at the age of 8, but formally took lessons when she was 10 years old and started competing at the age of 16.  Proving that she is one of the best equestriennes in the country, here are here accomplishments throughout her career:

Achievements
Here are some of Mikee’s accomplishments as an athlete:

2002
Champion, Individual Show Jumping, Asian Games

2001
Champion, CSI-B New Delhi
Philippine Equestrian Federation Over-all Rider of the Year
Philippine Equestrian Federation Show Jumping Rider Of the Year
Manila Polo Club Annual Horse Show Category A Champion

1999
3rd Sydney Royal Easter Horse Show World Cup and Olympic Qualifier

1998
Champion of the Manila Polo Ball Cup
Champion (RP Team) - Southeast Asian Nations Cup Series
Member, Show Jumping Team to the Bangkok Asian Games
4th Over-all Southeast Asian League World Cup qualifier

1997
4th Overall Philippine Equestrian Federation (PEF) Rider of the Year
3rd (Team Competition - Composite Team) Sydney Royal Easter Show
4th (Individual Show Jumping) Trivett Classic International Dressage CDI-O Show Jumping Invitational Derby

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just for the sake of taking it

I took the exam this afternoon not because I am still hoping in passing the course but rather, I took it just for the sake of taking the effin’ exam.

I reviewed the weekend before the test, and I diligently did the homework our professor gave us. But the mere thought of needing to ace the 5^th long exam and to get 70% in the finals just pulled me deeper and deeper in desperation and hopelessness. 

Howell. There’s always the next sem, but that would also mean another heart wrenching, depressing and totally annoying 5 in my transcript. =(

Diamonds

Diamonds are one of the most precious gems (and the hardest too) found in the world. 

20% of diamonds that are mined are used for jewelry, while the remaining 80% are used in the industry that includes  cutting tools, polishing hard metal, phonograph and videodisc needles, and bearings for laboratory instruments.

 The largest diamond found is the Cullinan diamond, which weighed 3,106 carats and was mined in the South Africa in 1905. It was cut into 9 large stones and almost 100 small ones.

Certified diamonds are evaluated, measured and scrutinized by trained eyes. A completed certificate includes an analysis of the diamond’s dimensions, quality, clarity, color, polish and symmetry. 

Delinquency Over

The semester’s coming to an end and I feel like I haven’t really achieved anything. I’m giving up ES13 because I am absolutely, positively sure, that I won’t pass that course. My scores in the 4 exams are consistent (including the decimal), and I have to perfect the 5^th exam and the finals.

I’m thinking, if only I’ve studied enough and done well during my early college days, I wouldn’t be shifting to MetE. I would have been a part of the graduating batch this March and I would have made my parents proud by graduating on time.

My performance this semester has made realize that I am not a hopeless case after all. I realized I can still achieve good grades if I wanted to, perfect the exams if I studied well, and how I wasted 4 years of my life by being irresponsible and forgetting that I have an obligation to do my best as a student. I shouldn’t have partied during the nights I needed to study for an exam. I shouldn’t have been drinking the night before a term paper was due.

I thought I would never again experience the pleasure of telling your parents that you were able to perfect an exam and seeing their faces light up with pride.

Thinking. Thinking. Thinking.

The ugly truth

The ugly truth is if he really wanted to call you, he’d do everything in his power to do so..

This is one truth I’d rather not hear.

And this is something that reminded me of what he did to me.

Of how hurt I was.

Of the pain I endured.

And this is becoming one of those stupid, mushy, emo blog I said I would never make.

Smoking is bad for the health

Its cheaper to buy cigarettes in a cigar store than buying htem in a 24-hour convenience store like 7-11 or Ministop.

But of course. Nicotine is bad for the health, so you should avoid smoking at all costs.

I’ve seen pictures of how smoking could affect your lungs and other internal organs, and how it could be the cause of lung cancer.

My mom and dad are chain smokers and they could finish a pack a day. I promised myself I won’t be like them. I just hope i could still keep that promise.

Disability Appeal

My father applied for a disability appeal in SSS when he had his cataract surgery four months ago.

It’s good to know that there are government and private institutions that provide help for people who are disabled and retired and how they provide access to a broad range of financial and healthcare information and services for them for people with disability.