True Love

Cory Aquino died August 1, 2009 at 3:18 in the morning. 

That’s 08-01-2009 03:18

Remove the 0’s and put the numbers together…  and results to 8129318.

Rearrange the numbers… Results to 8-21-1983.

That’s August 21, 1983.

The day NINOY died.

Coincidence? i say, TRUE LOVE

Patience is a Virtue

SJ: kamusta love life?
BERN: hahaha. sumisingle pa din :p
SJ: Bakit naman?
BERN: eh ganun talaga eh. hahaha. may hinihintay lang
SJ: ano naman hinhintay mo?
BERN: true love. wahahaha
SJ: asus, maglaro ka muna. mukhang matagal pa yun.
BERN: di,…. tinatapos lang niya board exam niya. ahahaha.
SJ: so, pagkatapos ng boardexam niya, kayo na?
BERN: ay. hindi ko lang alam. hehe. ewan ko  sa kaniya. pero, nananalig pa din ako. )

***yown. CONFIDENCE TO THE nth LEVEL. Naniniwala pa din na babalik siya. Ahahaha. MARTYR ka BERN!

Almost by Tamia

“Almost”

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there (sometimes I wanna rub ya)
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce (but tonight I wanna love ya)
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said its impossible to miss when you never had
Never, never almost had you (but tonight I wanna love ya)

Insecurity Kills

When I see her, insecurity starts kicking in. She’s taller, prettier, thinner, simple but still cute, a model… making me wish that I AM HER. I feel so unsatisfied with everything that I have whenever she’s around. I would stare at her and tell myself, ‘I wish I had eyes like her’, or ‘I wish I was thin as her’. Things like that. 

The fact that she’s pretty never bothered me before — until I saw her get dolled up for a photo shoot. She was wearing a dress that really suited her. It showed off her curves (which she doesn’t have much pala kasi she’s too thin), her flat tummy, and it just made her look TALLER than she is already. She was wearing make up, and still would have looked pretty even without it. And she effortlessly projected as the lights started flashing. SHE IS A GODDESS. Now who wouldn’t be jealous of that?

I would have looked stupid if I was the one wearing that dress.

I would have looked like Frankenstein with that kind of make-up on.

I couldn’t walk with any poise with the killer shoes she’s wearing.

I don’t have a flat tummy like hers.

My hair’s not as straight as hers.

She’s thinner than me.

She IS PRETTIER than me.

And the list goes on and on and on.

Me? INSECURED? Whatcha think?

Please. I want to avoid seeing her as much as possible. Because every time I do, it just makes me feel discontented with what God has given me. Makes me think, PLASTIC SURGERY is the answer.

Even if I did join and put all my effort in that contest, I would still lose anyway. So why bother joining if I have already foreseen my defeat? What’s the use of being glammed up if you’re standing next to her? No one would notice you because all eyes are on HER.

Full version of ninoy’s poem for cory

I have fallen in love
With the same woman three times
In a day spanning nineteen years
Of tearful joys and joyful tears

I loved her first when she was young
Enchanting, brilliant, middle-strung
Vibrant, fragrant, eternally new
Cool, invigorating as the morning dew.

Desperate, she shared, quieted my despairs
Hopeful, she fanned the fires of my hopes
Lavished me with days of bliss and peace,
Endless, perpetual days of fond memories.

She is my hope; I do not wish to realize
Hence my hope; forever green, eternal prize
My life transcending life, my ultimate quest
Dream of my life for whom Ill spare no rest.

I fell in love again
With the same woman the second time
When first she bore her child and mine
The first fruit of our union and our love.

The pains and anguish of motherhood she braved
Loved her children, their love she deservedly craved
Times were she hung on the very brink of death,
Unflinchingly fulfilling her mission to procreate.

In politics I plunged, she was always by my side,
Steadfast, uncomplaining, helping to turn the tide,
Amidst hardship, her rare courage would not relent
She was my secret weapon, the source of my strength.

The world was my concern, our home her domain,
The people mine, the children hers to maintain,
So it was in those eighteen years and a day
Till I was detained, forced in prison to stay.

Suddenly she became our sole support
Wellspring of hope, source of comfort
On her shoulders fell the burden of life
She emerged our captain in the sea of strife.

I fell in love again
With the same woman the third time
Looming from the battle, undaunted, unafraid,
Calm composed, she is God’s lovely maid.

It has been a year of many disappointments
Endless dark nights, long days of sad lament,
Of grave doubts, frustrations, bitter desolations,
Of privations, untold indignities, humiliations.

Dreams became nightmares; hopes, despair.
Rally to freedoms call, no one will dare.
Future is obscured, life has lost its meaning,
The tunnel is long, were only at the beginning.

The night is cold and dark, there are no stars,
Our prisons are full, our souls wrinkled with scars,
Afflicted, persecuted, struck down but not crushed,
How soon will this blight be erased by Allahs brush?

My only escape is to cling to the woman of my dreams
Who gave me a life full of love, a love full of life,
She is my urge to live, my sole motivation to survive,
She taught me not only to dream, but to make dreams alive.

Fight on! She says: Let not the guiltless ghost depart.
Your pains, our people know are caused by a thousand darts,
But be assuaged, remember the Filipino, his story, his past,
Soon, very soon, the tyrant will choke in his greedy power lust!

…..

HE made my day =)

i love it when he does that. 

The sweetest love letter written :)

Taken From Politics. Commentary. History. Advocacy. Entertainment. c”,) - Ninoy Aquino’s Last Letter to wife Cory before his 1983 assasination

 

My Dearest Cory,

In a few hours I shall be embarking on an uncertain fate, which may well be the end of a long struggle. I slept well last night for the first time since I left Boston — maybe because I’m just plain tired or I’m really at peace with myself. I want to tell you many things but time is running out and I do not have any machine. After a few more paragraphs, my penmanship will be illegible.

All the things I want to tell you may be capsulized in one line - - I love you! You’ve stood by me in my most trying moments and there were times I was very hard on you. But if anyone will ever understand me, it is you, and I know you will always find it in your heart to forgive — and unfair and ironic as it is — it is because of this thought and belief that I often took you for granted.

Early on I knew I was not meant to make money — so I won’t be able to leave anything to the children. I did what I thought I could do best, which is public service, and I hope our people in time will appreciate my sacrifices. This would be my legacy to the children. I may not bequeath them material wealth but I leave them a tradition which can be priceless.

I realize I’ve been very stingy with praise and appreciation for all your efforts — but though unsaid — you know that as far I’m concerned, you are the best. That’s why we’ve lasted this long. There will only be one thing in the world I will never accept — that you love me more than I love you — because my love for you though unarticulated will never be equaled.

If all goes well I should be back in my cell before sundown. Should I be detained do not rush to get home. Take your time and enjoy a side trip to Europe with the girls.

I’ll try to call you tonight if the authorities will allow me. Otherwise just remember me in your dreams.

Love,
Ninoy

P.S. I offered a special rosary for Papa and I asked for his intercession. You know he never failed me (Ninoy here is referring to Cory’s father, Jose Cojuangco, who died on August 21, 1976)”

 

Willie should be ashamed of himself

In Willie Revillame’s show, They were showing a clip of Cory’s motorcade sa inset. He suddenly freaks out on air & says

 “ANO BA YAN!! KUNG GUSTO NYO PAKITA YAN, YAN LANG!! KUNG AKO, AKO LANG!! NAGSASAYA KAMI DITO SA SHOW NA ETO, AYUSIN NYO YAN!! ” —– It was so DISRESPECTFUL.

Just the other day Boss Gabby Lopez profusely thanked Cory for giving them back ABS-CBN. Now Willie shuns her. WHAT A DISGRACE!!

Ninoy and Cory: An eternal love story

Taken From YSA, ONLINE - Ninoy and Cory: an eternal love story

 

I have fallen in love

 

With the same woman three times;

 

In a day spanning 19 years

 

Of tearful joys and joyful tears.

 

 

 

I loved her first when she was young,

 

enchanting and vibrant, eternally new.

 

She was brilliant, fragrant,

 

and cool as the morning dew.

 

 

 

I fell in love with her the second time;

 

When first she bore her child and mine

 

always by my side, the source of my strength,

 

helping to turn the tide.

 

 

 

But there were candles to burn

 

the world was my concern;

 

while our home was her domain,

 

and the people were mine

 

while the children were hers to maintain;

 

 

 

So it was in those eighteen years and a day,

 

till I was detained; forced in prison to stay.

 

 

 

Suddenly she’s our sole support;

 

source of comfort,

 

our wellspring of Hope,

 

on her shoulders felt the burden of Life.

 

 

 

I fell in love again,

 

with the same woman the third time.

 

Looming from the battle,

 

her courage will never fade.

 

 

 

Amidst the hardships she has remained,

 

undaunted and unafraid.

 

She is calm and composed,

 

she is God’s lovely maid.

 

Music & Lyrics by

Ninoy Aquino and Jose Mari Chan

 

This actually made me cry

SINCE WHEN???!

I HAVE TO GET THIS OUT OF MY SYSTEM…

OMG!!!! Since when did he start wearing braces????!!!!!

Deprived

Finally! Hell week’s over. I’d have 8 hours of sleep again.

I’m not really sure how I was able to survive last week. Exams, problem sets, technical report, exam again… HAGGARD. I’m lucky enough to at least have 4 hours of sleep in the night (or in the wee hours of the morning).

I’m enumerating the things I missed because of my crammed up schedule:

v      Harry Potter 6: The Half Blood Prince

v      Training last Friday

v      Sleep. Lots and lots of it!

v      Samantha Who marathon (Bakit kaya nag-react nung sinabi kong Samantha Who sa YM? Defensive? Hahaha. Joke lang. =D)

v      Timezone moments

v      MMM vs EEE volleyball game (conflict with my ES13 exam). No news yet on how it went.

I was not only deprived of sleep, but of my social life as well.

I AM SUCH A LOSER FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO WATCH HARRY POTTER ON ITS OPENING WEEK. Hope it’s still showing this week.

I am going to shop for new shoes! =D another effective stress reliever for me. =))

See?

See the influence you have over me?

Nobody was able to convince me to join the modeling thing, until you did.

So now i have to crash diet, and find clothes. Hahaha. 

Oh no! what have i gotten myself into???

Things that bother me

And so because I’m bored and tired from studying and solving problems in ES13, I decided to take a break… And write senseless things that has been bothering me for quite some time now.

1. There is a certain limit on kamalditahan. I know someone who thinks she’s better than anybody never fails to rub it in the faces of the people she works with. If she doesn’t want the task given to her by someone more SENIOR and more AUTHORITATIVE than her, she throws tantrums and makes sure everybody sees it. 

She’s an athlete too. But I guess she doesn’t know the meaning of being a good sport. When on the losing end, she flares up and loses her temper which greatly affects her game.

She’s a good friend of mine, but sometimes her temper really bothers me.

2. I hate people who over react on things. I hate people who are too PERKY. I hate people who are smart alecs and act as if they know EVERYTHING.

She wears her hair in a high ponytail and lets it bounce every time she walks.

At first, I thought there was nothing to hate about her. She’s smart and friendly and nice to talk with. But the more I see her and how she acts around everybody, it was like I am seeing her in a new light; I was finally seeing things a friend of mine hates about her.

DEFINE OA. HER. Too perky. Hate it.

3. I admit I am jealous some people I know who are also taking ES13 passed the first exam… and I didn’t. My score’s not that low, nor is it far from the passing grade. But still, I have already failed GOAL 1 — to get exempted (or at least get a high grade) in that subject.

So now, I am using that envy as a driving force to do better in the second exam.

4. I’ve been writing less and less these past few days. I’m running out of creative juices.

Even majority of my posts in tumblr are reblogs.

I’m scared of getting my hopes up.  Even though I’m living (and miraculously surviving) a life full of uncertainties.

I am not sure how everything would end. I’m still crossing my fingers and hoping for the best, though.

Ang likot kasi!

NAHULOG PAMANGKIN KO SA CRIB. 

As in TUMAMBLING siya, at ako ang nakakita. at hanggang ngayon, nanginging pa din ako.