Goodbye

“Of all goodbyes, the kind which hurt the most was the one your ears never heard of but your heart knew very well while being said…”

The mother and daughter conversation

The daughter’s side:

            I’m old enough to commit myself in a relationship that I think would work. I have turned down and let numerous suitors pass by just to please you. I have always put up with your wants and needs, neglecting what I WANT and what I NEED myself.

I have a career now in which I did my very best to establish at an early age. Now, I’m on the road of improving the path I have chosen.

I’m in love with a man, but it doesn’t necessarily mean that I love you less. I love you more and more with all your support and effort you exert to fix me food to eat before I leave the house, and staying up even during the wee hours of the morning when I do overtime.

Don’t make me choose between you and him. Its hard being stuck and choosing between your mother and a guy I’m madly in love with. Please mom, just let me be. Let me be happy. Don’t make this hard for both of us.

The mother’s side:

            I am not against the idea of you, falling in love and committing yourself to a relationship. You’re old enough to know what you want and what makes you happy.

            What I’m really concerned about, is the fact that you two have the same job and you both work for the same company who doesn’t allow any commitments between their employees. Wouldn’t it be nicer if you find someone outside the company; someone who won’t deny you in front of other people; someone who’s more established in life and someone who WOULD LISTEN AND RESPECT ME. I am only thinking of your career and the soon to be repercussions of your decision. I am not, in any way, against him. But with what he showed me last night, I am thinking otherwise.

            I didn’t want this to come to a point where I have to make you choose between him and me… but you made me.  

Here we go again

I thought things were getting better.

I thought I WAS GETTING BETTER… 

Hindi pa pala.