Waiting in vain

He told me, “Hindi na siya babalik Bern.”

I wanted to rip his head off. ‘Fuck you! You’re the fucking reason kaya hindi na siya babalik. Dammet. I don’t want YOU. I want HIM.’

Now what’s so hard to understand?? I told him clearly (and harshly) that I DON’T WANT HIM BACK. Things changed. I’m not the same girl who used to follow him like a love-sick puppy who constantly sought for his attention.

I have every right to be happy. Was it really necessary to take that away from me??! Minsan lang ako naging masaya hindi pa ako pinagbigyan. Selfish bitch.

He’s the reason for who I am right now. Strong, independent, and much, much wiser BERENICE than from before.

Matigas ako??! Oo. I learned from my past experiences that a weakling wouldn’t survive the harsh, cruel world we are living in. Survival of the fittest dude. It’s stupid to allow yourself get constantly hurt by a person who you don’t even deserve.

I WISH THINGS ENDED DIFFERENTLY. I wish I could tell my story and end it with a ‘and they live happily ever after’. Kaso hindi eh.

‘The FROG banished the prince from the kingdom, leaving the princess in despair. Evil won over goodness and the once blue, perfect sky turned gray.’

The princess is still waiting for her prince to come back and save her from the cruel hands of the evil frog. If it happens, GOOD… If it doesn’t, sorry na lang.

‘Cause when I’m with him I am thinking of you

Thinking of you, what you would do

If you were the one who was spending the night

Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes

Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes’