I AM SORRY

I’m wondering how I managed to survive a week without breaking down or started shouting to the world how I f*ckin’ hate my life and the people who continue to make it more miserable day by day. I have eaten a lot lately (thus the bumabakat na bilbil over fitting clothes and the ala-amazona arms and pata) and haven’t really talked to anybody ng matino. I was always in a sour mood last holy week and spent most of my time alone contemplating what I did to deserve too much torture in life. Had I been a swindler in my past life? Or worst, a criminal? But I quickly pushed those thoughts aside. Because if I had been that bad in my previous life, then I would have been one of those critters people hate and fear.

I am still pissed off with everything that happened. But I couldn’t COMPLETELY blame THEM for everything that has happened and the decisions that they made because I know that partly, it was my fault to let things come to a point where everything got so complicated and they just wanted to escape from it.

I apologize to my friends who had to endure my being mataray these past few days. I’m sorry to all those who I haven’t been much of help when they needed me. I am sorry for being irresponsible and breaking trusts that I should have handled with much, much care. I had been a pain in the ass to some. I should have seen sooner that I was already being a burden and that keeping their distance from me is the only way to make things easier. I AM SORRY.

THIS SUCKS. Life sucks.