Enjoying my Summer vacation

It’s my 4^th year to take summer classes. Every summer, I have to spend a month of sitting in a classroom while listening to my professor talk endlessly for hours. TORTURE.

Everyday, I am bombarded with information that I have to understand and remember.

Exam every week.

No breaks in between.

Walking from one building to another in the heat of the sun.

The last time that I had a fun summer vacation was when I graduated from high school. My life revolved around sleep and food. THAT WAS FUN.

I can’t even recall the last time I went to the beach to relax and enjoy my vacation. NO MEMORY.

1 month. 4 weeks. 20 days. 6 hours everyday. Humdrum. Bored.

Im innocent :D

Grabbed from Happy

You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

1) Danced on a table in a bar? - INNOCENT
2) Ever told a lie? - GUILTY
3) Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? - GUILTY.
4) Ever kissed someone of the same sex? - INNOCENT (unless kiss sa cheeks. Then i would be GUILTY of that.)
5) Kissed a picture? - INNOCENT
6) Slept in until 5 PM? - GUILTY
7) Fallen asleep at work/school? - GUILTY
8) Held a snake? - GUILTY
9) Been suspended from school? - INNOCENT.
10) Worked at a fast food restaurant? - INNOCENT.
11) Stolen from a store? - GUILTY
12) Been fired from a job? - INNOCENT
13) Done something you regret? - GUILTY
14) Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? - GUILTY )
15) Caught a snowflake on your tongue? - INNOCENT
16) Kissed in the rain? - INNOCENT (This would be great though hahaha)
17) Sat on a roof top? - GUILTY :D
18) Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? - GUILTY
19) Shaved your head? - INNOCENT
20) Slept naked? - GUILTY
21) Had a boxing membership? - INNOCENT
22) Made your boyfriend/girlfriend cry? - INNOCENT
23) Been in a band? - INNOCENT
24) Shot a gun? - INNOCENT
25) Donated blood? - INNOCENT
26) Eaten alligator meat? - INNOCENT
27) Eaten cheesecake? - GUILTY
28) Loved someone you shouldn’t? - GUILTY (
29) Have or had a tattoo? - GUILTY HENNA LANG NAMAN
30) Liked someone, but will never tell who? - GUILTY
31) Been too honest? - GUILTY
32) Ruined a surprise? - INNOCENT
33) Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you cant walk afterwards? - GUILTY
34) Erased someone in your friends list? - GUILTY
35) Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or a man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? - INNOCENT
36) Joined a pageant? - INNOCENT
37) Been told that you’re handsome/beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? - uhm. GUILTY???
38) Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning? - GUILTY!
39) A total stranger treat you by paying your jeepney fare? GUILTY
40) Get totally angry that you cried so hard? - GUILTY!:(

I AM SORRY

I’m wondering how I managed to survive a week without breaking down or started shouting to the world how I f*ckin’ hate my life and the people who continue to make it more miserable day by day. I have eaten a lot lately (thus the bumabakat na bilbil over fitting clothes and the ala-amazona arms and pata) and haven’t really talked to anybody ng matino. I was always in a sour mood last holy week and spent most of my time alone contemplating what I did to deserve too much torture in life. Had I been a swindler in my past life? Or worst, a criminal? But I quickly pushed those thoughts aside. Because if I had been that bad in my previous life, then I would have been one of those critters people hate and fear.

I am still pissed off with everything that happened. But I couldn’t COMPLETELY blame THEM for everything that has happened and the decisions that they made because I know that partly, it was my fault to let things come to a point where everything got so complicated and they just wanted to escape from it.

I apologize to my friends who had to endure my being mataray these past few days. I’m sorry to all those who I haven’t been much of help when they needed me. I am sorry for being irresponsible and breaking trusts that I should have handled with much, much care. I had been a pain in the ass to some. I should have seen sooner that I was already being a burden and that keeping their distance from me is the only way to make things easier. I AM SORRY.

THIS SUCKS. Life sucks.