Thanking him

I remember how I used to be in love with someone for 6 years. I turned down suitors and potential boyfriends in the hopes of he will realize that I was meant for him. Years passed and we eventually became friends and closer as days go by. We were playing the same sport, of the same section, and even the same circle of friends but we never got beyond the boundaries of friendship. The love was one-way and unreciprocated.

            We talked before our graduation day. He thanked me for loving him and told me that I should let go. He said that I deserve someone better (which is apparently not him) and that I would be a good girlfriend to a guy who would appreciate and know my worth. It was heartbreaking to hear those words coming from a person whom you have learned to love unselfishly, without asking for anything in return.

            I was hurt and I knew that I can’t make him change his mind. He had a point and I was left with no choice but to let him go. It was hard but I had to be strong.

            It was torture to force yourself to forget a guy you have been suck with for a long time. But I didn’t expect that I will be waking up one day and the first thing that came into my mind was, “Ayoko na sakaniya.” I didn’t know why it took me several years before I realized that his love was never meant for me. Sad as it may seem, we were only meant as friends — nothing more than that.

I haven’t heard from him and I haven’t seen him for more than a year now. The next time I see him, I should thank him for teaching me a valuable lesson of loving, learning and letting go.