REGRET part II

I regret giving you the understanding you don’t deserve. I regret being patient when you’re being a jerk. You don’t appreciate the sacrifices I make; you don’t see the efforts I exert.

I am giving you all I have. I do anything just to see you happy, but you make me feel that what I do is not enough to make you realize that I don’t deserve being treated like this.

Change for the better, please lang. I know that love is unconditional and I shouldn’t be asking you to change because I want you to. But your actions make me see that you really don’t appreciate who I am, and that I am of no importance to you.

Regret. That’s all that is left of me. You didn’t make me feel that I am the person who could be The ONE — kahit minsan.

I wish I could be thankful that I met you and believe that you made me a better person.

I am praying that one day, you will REGRET what you DID and you will realize how much I really mean to you. I wish that when that day comes, I have found someone else who appreciates me.

REGRET part I

I still regret shifting to another course. I still doubt if I have a future in Metallurgical Engineering. When people find out that I came from Industrial Engineering, they would tell me that they think that there are more opportunities for industrial engineers than for metallurgical engineers.

Did I make the right decision of giving up and shifting to another course? Is despair my reason for choosing another engineering course?

What did I do for my life to be f*cked up like this?

I wish I could have given more attention to my academics. I wish I could have set aside more time for studying. I wish I could have had perfect attendance on all my subjects. … And I wish I could have chosen a course not related to numbers and computations.

Until now I think that Engineering is unsuitable for me and it really is not of my interest. I have chosen to stay because of pride. I could have shifted out during my second year if only I have known that staying would lead to problems like this.