Frustrating

December 29, 2008

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There are a lot of things going on in my mind right now. I want to write all of them down, but I really can’t find the right words to express them. I felt restless and uneasy as I was itching to write all of the ideas that came and went early this evening. Now I am in front of the computer — ‘speechless’ and I have no idea of how I will start this blog post.

Argh.. This is frustrating. This is hopeless… 

Christmas Eve

When I was a kid, I looked forward to Christmas. Waiting for the clock to strike 12 was torture, and my parents making me go to sleep before 12 made it even worse. They would convince me to go to sleep by making me believe that Santa Claus won’t drop by our house to fill my sock with candies and money. Being the gullible child that I am, I would close my eyes and force myself to go to sleep.

Every Christmas eve, I was always giddy and excited to open the presents underneath the Christmas tree. I would eat and swallow my food as fast as I could so that I could open my gifts. I can still remember how I loved the smell of new toys and books. I would immediately play with my new toys and won’t go to sleep until the wee hours of the morning.

As I grew older, I got tired of the Santa Claus scheme my parents used against me. I preferred clothes and shoes over childish things like toys. I still look forward to Christmas and Noche Buena, but the giddiness and excitement lessened.

Tonight is Christmas Eve, and in less than 3 hours, the clock will strike 12. I feel like today is just an ordinary day — nothing special. The mall is packed with late-shoppers (like me) and the road is jam-packed with cars and pedestrians. As I was going home from buying a gift for my mother, I thought, ‘is Christmas supposed to be like this as you grow older?’ No jacket could warm the coldness I was feeling inside. I am still figuring out what is wrong with me. Why can’t I enjoy the festivities like other people do?

I am wishing for my next Christmas to be just like when I was a kid. I wish to feel the same excitement I used to feel back then … Not the coldness and emptiness I’m feeling right now.

High

I haven’ t tried Ephedrasil Hardcore myself, but most reviews (if not all) i have read give positive comments about the product. Its a mind-alternating medicine, that gives you motivation and pleasure, and even desire.

These are some testimonials made by consumers. I got this form the Ephedrasil Hardocre sight.

“I took 3 capsules of Ephedrasil HARDCORE this morning and I felt like an unstoppable machine! My energy and focus were through the roof! And it made me feel Happier than I’ve EVER felt before.” - Matt Durant, IL

“I only took one capsule before lunch because I realized that I hadn’t eaten ANYTHING all day long — had only been drinking water. I forced myself to eat lunch. Best of all - NO crash! I’m a HARDCORE ADDICT!!! Something interesting happens when you take this product at the MAX Dosage. The best way I can describe it is as a “Natural High” that enhances the weight loss effects.” - Kimmy S, Long Beach, CA

“I’m not super big into weightlifting — at least I wasn’t. But when I take Ephedrasil HARDCORE I can’t help but just go after the weights like I never was able to before. I feel so energized and focused! My workouts are brutally intense and when they’re over I have the most satisfying feeling of accomplishment! Besides the obvious motivational factor, the weight loss benefits can’t be overstated. I’m shaving off my love handles (finally) and my muscles are responding extremely well to the workout I’m now able to put them through.” Sam S, Portland, OR

“16 pounds gone in as many days and it looks like I’m still going strong. My cardio sessions are insane and it’s helping just melt the fat away. Apparently those 16 pounds were hiding my six pack, because it’s back BABY! Thanks!” Bonnie C, Tucson, AZ

“I’ve struggled for the past five years trying to lose the ‘last 10 pounds’ so to speak and Ephedrasil now has me halfway there — IN A **** WEEK! This stuff Rocks! I’ll be back for more…and more…and more. The energy I’m getting is phenomenal. I can’t say enough about how this has worked out for me. You could charge twice as much and I’d still be lining up to buy it.” J. Cimarden, Richmond, VA

Orovo

The 10 super foods are believed to make you look young, and effectively lose weight. The wife of the CEO of Orovo immediately tried theses 10 superfoods to see for herself if it is indeed true. But instead of gaining the age-defying result it promised, she lost 10 lbs and lost the acne she thought she would have forever.

Because of that, Orovo was created. It condensed all the essential vitamins and minerals the 10 superfoods possess. They claim that the intake of orovo for a week will result in losing 10lbs and even reducing age lines and acnes.

Dreaming of Las Vegas

I dream of travelling the world — visiting places far away from where i live.

I am not really a gambler, but one of the places i dream of going to is Las Vegas — the Sin City. With numerous casinoes, lights and entertainment, who would’nt be tempted to visit the place? It is well known because of its casinoes, and it is a place commonly used for films and television programs because of its settings.

But of course, before going there, do not forget to reserve a hotel room. A vegas hotel provides everything a tourist needs.

december 10

december 10, 2007

egye101

2:57 pm mood:

nababadtrip akp.. mukha ba aong tiga pirma ng attendance?! dahil sa lintek na alkohol na yan ngawa pang mag absent kahit na sabi ko pumasok siya. at dahil sa kakapalan ng mukha, nagawa pang manghila at mangdamay ng mga kaibigan niya. apat tuloy silang kelangan kong ipirma.

mas mahalaga ba ang alcohol kesa sa akin?! pota! ibibili ko siya ng sampung longneck at sabay sabay sa kaniyang paiinumin lahat yun tapos babasagin ko sa ulo niya lahat ng bote pagkatapos. tang-inang bisyo yan. pinagpapalit ang girlfriend dahil sa putanginang bisyo na yan na wala namang maidudulot na mabuti.

tae. nagagawa akong iwanan at paghintayin dahil sa mga bisyong yan. eh kung mga bisyo na lang kaya niya ung girlfriend niya?! sus!

3:28

nababadtrip pa din ako. pero mejo nabawasan na. ayaw ko makipag-usap dahil baka mangbara lang ako mei makaaway pa ako…

boring ang egye 101. kaya nababadtrip ako. gusto ko ng umuwi…

Steel Buildings

What could be  more sturdy than a structure made of steel?

Steel buildings gained popularity by the 20^th century and was widely used after World War II. Because of technology, designs and structures were improved. With the invention of Computer Aided Design (CAD), computations became more accurate. These caused low-cost and more efficient in manufacturing the parts needed for the structure.

Online Shopping

what’s more hassle-free and time-saving than shopping online?

Im a certified online shopper. When i don’t have the time to go to malls and stores to buy things i need, i go online and search for them. I even find items that are on sale and some are even really not that expensive.

this christmas, why not try shopping online? You will be saved the effort to go to crowded shopping malls and even lose the risk of being robbed along the way.

Tis the season to be jolly

When I give presents to people who are special to me, I always keep in mind that it is always the thought that matters. It is not really necessary to buy expensive gifts just to show how much you care about a person.

Sometimes, even cheap gifts can look elegant and expensive by how you wrap them and the gift cards you will use. I always feel excited when I receive gifts wrap in fancy paper. I keep the gift wrapper and the gift cards to always remind me to thank the person who gave me the gift.

So this holiday season, don’t forget to show the people around you how much you care about them.

Running is my favorite sport

A treadmill is a work-out machine for people who really don’t have enough time to jog outside. It is an exercise machine for running and even walking while staying in one place.

There are two types of treadmill available in the market nowadays. The more expensive type is motor-driven while the simple and lightweight and cheaper version is manually operated — it resists the motion, hence moving only when the walker pushes the belt using their feet.

Getting the perfect figure

Who doesn’t dream of attaining a perfect figure? Who doesn’t wish of having the body the actresses of Hollywood posses?

Women are more conscious of their figure than men do. We find ways to lose weight the fastest way; crash diet, working out, and sometimes the extreme can even lead to anorexia and bulimia. But who would want to undergo strict diet, hard work-out and calorie restriction when they could easily pop a pill?

Diet pills often contain PPA (phenylpropanolamine) and caffeine; substances that control the appetite. The PPA is a stimulant for the central nervous system and has many effects on the body, one which is to suppress the appetite. The best diet pills need not to be expensive. What is important is you know its contents and the approval of your doctor.

REGRET part II

I regret giving you the understanding you don’t deserve. I regret being patient when you’re being a jerk. You don’t appreciate the sacrifices I make; you don’t see the efforts I exert.

I am giving you all I have. I do anything just to see you happy, but you make me feel that what I do is not enough to make you realize that I don’t deserve being treated like this.

Change for the better, please lang. I know that love is unconditional and I shouldn’t be asking you to change because I want you to. But your actions make me see that you really don’t appreciate who I am, and that I am of no importance to you.

Regret. That’s all that is left of me. You didn’t make me feel that I am the person who could be The ONE — kahit minsan.

I wish I could be thankful that I met you and believe that you made me a better person.

I am praying that one day, you will REGRET what you DID and you will realize how much I really mean to you. I wish that when that day comes, I have found someone else who appreciates me.

REGRET part I

I still regret shifting to another course. I still doubt if I have a future in Metallurgical Engineering. When people find out that I came from Industrial Engineering, they would tell me that they think that there are more opportunities for industrial engineers than for metallurgical engineers.

Did I make the right decision of giving up and shifting to another course? Is despair my reason for choosing another engineering course?

What did I do for my life to be f*cked up like this?

I wish I could have given more attention to my academics. I wish I could have set aside more time for studying. I wish I could have had perfect attendance on all my subjects. … And I wish I could have chosen a course not related to numbers and computations.

Until now I think that Engineering is unsuitable for me and it really is not of my interest. I have chosen to stay because of pride. I could have shifted out during my second year if only I have known that staying would lead to problems like this.

Feeling Sexy

Lingerie is a term commonly used to describe an undergarment of a woman. They are typically designed to be alluring and erotic with the use of materials such as Lycra, satin, and lace or silk. 

Before women became more liberated and daring, undergarments were worn for 2 major purposes only: to define their shapes (by wearing corsets) and for hygienic purposes. Nowadays, lingeries are not only meant as an undergarment, but for outerwear as well. Lacy straps and layers are meant for the underwear to be shown off and as part of the outerwear.

Lingeries can be the perfect gift for a woman you know. Some could be expensive but you can also find discount lingerie online.