one of those sleepless nights

It has been a while since the last time you called me. I know we see each other and talk everyday, but you never really call me on the phone when something important comes up. You always text me whatever it is you want to tell me. What made it different that night? You didn’t really have something that important to tell me. You just asked me to do what I always do almost everyday. But then before you hung up, you said something I that I didn’t hear from you for months now.  I was shocked, flabbergasted, dumbfounded… To put it in a simpler term — I was speechless. It happened so quick, I wasn’t sure how to react. It took you a second to say those three words, but it took me five seconds to comprehend what you said and to think if I heard you right. Instead of replying to what you said, I just said, ‘Goodnight. See you tomorrow…’
    It was stupid of me to let go of that moment. Instead of grabbing that opportunity to finally have you back, I simply let it go…

    I didn’t sleep well that night. I still kept on thinking if I really heard you right or kung namalik-tenga lang ako nun. I was happy to hear that from you again, but I wasn’t really sure if you meant it. Was it just a spur of the moment? Was it unintentional?

    You didn’t say those words again since the night you called me.

    Yes. There is still a part of me who wants you back. But a part of me also knows, that just won’t happen.