Rain, Rain Go Away

Its funny how the weather is in sync with my mood.

This morning, i was sunny and cheery. Everything felt soooo right. I woke up happy and in a good mood. I thought nothing could ruin my day. But while i was in my ES11 class, i was solving all the problems thatour professor gave us, but my mind is filled with other matters not related with statics or physics. itried to convince myself that i was okay and there is nothing to feel sad about.

Then came lunch time and i started to realize what was bothering me. Sobrang bigat ng pakiramdam ko. I wanted to cry my heart out but i don’t want to do it in public. The weather then was cloudy and it looked like it was going to rain. Aun. Umulan nga. hehehe.. Galing. dapat pala lagi akong masaya para maaraw palagi.

keep your friends close, but your enemies closer

 I feel so helpless …

I thought that i was already winning from a battle that i have tried so hard to survive. I thought that i was okay and i can manage life without him. BUT NO.. I was wrong..

Being friends with him is so hard pala. Now i believe people when they say that its hard to be friends with your ex. Lalo na pag clsoe pa din kayo.  Actually i have already accepted the fact na break na kami. But what i can’t accept is, nakikipagdate na siya sa iba.. Sadness… And i don’t like the girl that he’s dating now. (as if naman mei karapatan pa ko diba?) hehehe..

Eniwei.. Im just so f*cking depressed because last weekend, i thought i was really over him.. haaay..

i missed blogging

I am excited with my CL30o class. Wondering what subject it is? CL 30 is Comparative Literature and discussion on European Literature. At the start of the class, our professor asked us why we took the subject. When she asked me, I answered:

BERN: I am from the college of Engineering (apparently i was the only one from engg). Honestly speaking, I took this subject because there were no other subjects that would fit in my schedule. (laughter from class)

PROFESSOR: Why did you choose this subject?

BERN: uhm.. Trip lang? hehe..

(more laughter)

PROFESSOR: So.. Kidding time lang? (smiles) 

BERN: But i have always been interested in literature but i haven’t read any stories or novels from the European Literature. 

I really felt stupid afterwards. Why couldn’t i have thought of a reason that won’t make me look stupid in front of teh whole class?! I am not surehow my prof reacted with my answer.

Anyway, when shew wrote our readings for the whole semester, I became more interested in the subject.

When my friends knew that I was taking CL30, either they all reacted negatively or they would ask me what subject it was.

‘Aanhin mu naman ang CL30? Dapat nag 15 units ka na lang.’

‘hay nako bern. Iddrop mu lang din yan’

‘anu naman matutunan mo jan?’

WOW! so much for being my friends noh? hehe.

   Anyway, i’m really excited because my group will report about fairy tales in their original form. (The politically correct daw sabi ni mam). Stories like, sleeping Beauty, Red Riding Hood, Three Little Pigs.. I guess i was really lucky inm getting it during the draw lots. 

The sad part in CL30 class is that my classroom is in teh 5th floor of the CAL new bldg. Imagine how much exercise i am getting when i rush into class. TSK.