im getting tired

ive had a lot of things in my mind lately.. I’ve had a hard time getting sleep these past few nights…

nothing been’s the same since it happened.. everything changed. i have foreseen this coming, but i didn’t expect it to be this…. awful. (for the lack of better terms)

let me put it this way.. freedom? GONE… hello? HELL!!

all their disappointments and frustrations on me. I have always been the black sheep of our family.. i’m the  MALDITA. even my mom gave up on my kamalditahan.. she’s always telling me na ‘maldita ko nung bata, pero mas maldita ka sa akin.’ 

this is me… i’ve been like this since i was a kid. i don;t want to be told twice .. 

my lola gave up on me. haha.. and my father’s telling me that they are losing their patience with me… they’re tired of my stubborness.  and me? im tired of their ‘excessive favoritism’ to my other two siblings….

i have learned to be independent because of them… They have a. tas ngayon bigla silang manghihimasok sa buhay ko?! cmon.. ngayon pang 19 na ako?

ayan.. sa sobrang pagiging favorite nila kay ate ayan tuloy. tsk… ayoko na.

malapit na din akong sumuko sa kanila.