im getting tired

ive had a lot of things in my mind lately.. I’ve had a hard time getting sleep these past few nights…

nothing been’s the same since it happened.. everything changed. i have foreseen this coming, but i didn’t expect it to be this…. awful. (for the lack of better terms)

let me put it this way.. freedom? GONE… hello? HELL!!

all their disappointments and frustrations on me. I have always been the black sheep of our family.. i’m the  MALDITA. even my mom gave up on my kamalditahan.. she’s always telling me na ‘maldita ko nung bata, pero mas maldita ka sa akin.’ 

this is me… i’ve been like this since i was a kid. i don;t want to be told twice .. 

my lola gave up on me. haha.. and my father’s telling me that they are losing their patience with me… they’re tired of my stubborness.  and me? im tired of their ‘excessive favoritism’ to my other two siblings….

i have learned to be independent because of them… They have a. tas ngayon bigla silang manghihimasok sa buhay ko?! cmon.. ngayon pang 19 na ako?

ayan.. sa sobrang pagiging favorite nila kay ate ayan tuloy. tsk… ayoko na.

malapit na din akong sumuko sa kanila.

it made me realize…

He’s finally here. But he didn’t bring my bag.

I am hungry. Im starving.

I asked him where my bag is but he just shrugged and said that he forgot to bring it.  He apologized for forgetting to bring my bag.  I told him that my lunch was there and i was really really hungry already. I haven’t eaten yet.

he just asked me, "ba’t hindi ka pa naglulunch?"

I really felt like crying then. I tend to get so emotional when im hungry.

When he went for his class, i cried. I really cried and i just can’t stop crying.

What hurt the most was that he made me feel that the fact that i wasn’t able to eat lunch because of him, was lke no bearing for him. 

I cried in the library, in front of the xerox lady, in front of everybody. I wanted to stop because it was really embarassing but i don’t know why i can’t.  I just cried my heart out.

It just made me realize more that i don’t want him back. I DON’T WANT HIM BACK. 

i am starving

I am stuck here at the engineering library waiting for Daryl to arrive.  He has all my things (including my lunch and money) and all that i am left with is his laptop.

He asked me if i can go to UP first so that I can talk to the xerox lady about the book that he was planning to be photocopied. I asked him if he can bring my bag to school since i am going to bring the laptop with me.

Its already past one and my head is throbbing with pain because of hunger.

Speaking of the library, i remembered back when i was in grade 3, i got the Most Frequent Borrower in the Library  award. I guess this would be the first time that you hear of such an award. 

i fequently go and borrow books in the library because i really love reading books when i was a kid. I would borrow one book during recess time and read it all throughout the day (even in class hours) and return it during my breaktime in the afternoon. I would then borrow another book.  The librarian would be skeptical if i really read the book. Hehe.  

Those were the days. Now that i am in college, i have less time to read books. I don’t even have the time to go to the library for leisure. I only go there if i need to use the net or if i have to borrow a book for a homework.

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