taking a break from ME63

i hate ME63…

i don’t get it why i need to take that damn subject. It doesn’t have anything to do with my majors. tsk.

would you rather…

*ive been staring at the screen for a long time already and i can’t think of anything to blog down.

*I can’t fully concentrate on studying ME63. I thought the exam would be on saturday.. But NO! It was rescheduled on Friday and i haven’t started studying yet! (dammet! panu ba malalaman kung alin ung Ql or ung Qh!!!!???)

*I’ve been depressed for since the year started. Especially when February kicked in. I had too many things running in my mind. (kahit hanggang sa pagtulog napapanaginipan ko) Good thing they are resolved one by one. And an assurance from him was all that i needed pala.

*Would you rather choose a person from your past whom you think you are falling for all over again OR choose the person who has shown love and patience (like nobody else did before) and whom you are with right now?  

*how would you know if you have chosen the right person?

*Regret.. The feeling i hate the most.Damn.

Worst Valentine’s DAy ever

February 14, 2008 …. WORST valentine’s day ever.

i should have spent that day ALONE. At least di ako masasaktan.

9 things women usually say

1.) Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2.) Five Minutes : If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more Minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3.) Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something, And you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine..

4.) Go Ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don’t Do It!

5.) Loud Sigh : This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an Idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing With you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6.) That’s Okay : This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. That’s okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7.) Thanks : A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say You’re welcome.

8.) Whatever : Is a women’s way of saying F@!K YOU!

9.) Don’t worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking ‘What’s Wrong?’ For the woman’s response refer to #3.

losing someone hurts

i never expected i would react that way…

seeing him lying there… in a deep slumber.

he was still healthy the last time i saw him. Given that he had malfunctioning kidneys, had 4 kidney transplants already and innumerable dialysis, we were all expecting na may taning na buhay nia., but, bat parang ang bilis? he was only 19. too young to die.

i never really became close to him. Third did. They played playstation together and had ‘guy talks’. I rarely see him. Yes, we spent some Christmases and New Years together. But i never really had an attachment with him. gets? He even spent summers in our house but i never really talked to him..

We didn’t tell Third the truth. He was too young back then to understand. All he knew was JC was our cousin. But i guess nagets din niya na JC is our brother. Half-brother.

When my father texted me last monday morning to tell me that JC has already passed away, i felt…. NOTHING.. nothing.. I was not close to him.. and i didn’t even treat him as my brother. So why should i cry? I didn’t even have any plans in going to Naga for his wake. But i had to. "Kapatid mo siya." my relatives kept on telling me. I went there. Just for the sake of going there.

But when i finally saw his coffin and a picture of him smiling, i was on the verge of tears. But i didn’t want them to see me crying. My sister was already crying and i felt like crying too but i didn’t want my grandmother to see me in an emotional state.

Masakit pala mawalan ng kapatid. Kahit na hindi man kami naging close, or reallt talked, masakit pa din.

his kidneys has stopped malfunctioning at the age of 5. Since then, he’s going in and out of the hospital for treatments and operations. I remember that his fluid intake was measured (2 or 3 liters lang per day) and he wasn’t allowed to eat junk foods and drink softdrinks like normal kids do. But i guess he still lived a normal life.

He had 4 kidney transplants and then regular dialysis after that. (his body wouldn’t accept transplants anymore).He was then allowed to eat everything he wants to eat and do everything he wants to do. Live his life to the fullest. But just last week, his body gave up.. Just like that. He had seizures and the only thing that kept him alive were machines and an oxygen tank. He couldn’t close his eyes (yes.. His eyes were wide open even while sleeping) nor could he speak. Monday, 5:20am, he stopped breathing.

19 years old. too young. He could have done so many things pa. Triumph over challenges and achieve great things pa. But i guess it was his time already and he was ready for that. He had already bid his farewell to his friends and family even before he was rushed to the hospital.

Guys… Please include in your prayers the soul of my brother who has passed away this monday lang. Thank you.

i am right-brained

BErn, you are Right-brained

Most right-brained people like you are flexible in many realms of their lives. Whether picking up on the nuances of musical concerto, appreciating the subtle details in a work of art, or seeing the world from a different perspective, right-brained people are creative, imaginative, and attuned to their surroundings.

People probably see your thinking process as boundless, and that might translate to your physical surroundings as well. Some people think of you as messier than others. It’s not that you’re disorganized, it’s just that you might use different systems to organize (by theme, by subject, by color). Straight alphabetization and rigidly ordered folders are not typical of right-brained behavior.

You are also more intuitive than many. When it comes to reading literature, you probably prefer creative writing or fiction over nonfiction. And when it comes to doing math, you might find you enjoy geometry more than other forms like algebra.

*i hate math. hahahaha

don’t ask questions

if you don’t want to get hurt….

dont ask questions…

if you don’t want to cry,

don’t ask questions.

if you don’t want to ruin your day,

don’t ask questions…

Sometimes, the truth hurts.. And its better if we’re blinded by lies, than to find out the truth and get our hearts broken in the process..