the confrontation

got back in Manila… AT LAST!

after 3 days of missing school and being stuck at home doing nothing but surfing the net….

IM HOME…..

but BIGGER problems await me.. haha.. nafifil ko.  i’ll be going home to Laguna this weekend and i have to face my parents…

HELL…. that is how my life is going to be from now on.. i have prepared myself for the preaching marathon na haharapin ko.

my days of FREEDOM is OVER…

my father and my lola have decided na uwian na ako from now on.. my lola and i even had a fight when i got home from naga last thursday morning.. TAKE NOTE: it was 5 in the morning and minumura na ako ng lola ko..

They can’t blame me for what happened to my sister..wag nila akong idamay sa nangyaring katangahan na ginawa ng ate ko… they have decided for my life without my consent.. i know i am still dependent to them but still, matanda na ako. i can think and decide for myself…

I want to blame my sister for what’s happening to me now… GALIT ako sa kaniya.. Because of her, hell is an arm’s reach for me. haha.. actually, hell na mismo ang lumapit at umabot sa akin…

what will my parents say when i get home this saturday?

everytime na lang ba na asa lola ko ako, same speech na lang ang sasabihin sa akin?

I WANT TO HATE HER... pero i can’t … tama nga naman sinabi ng tita ko. anjan na yan. wala ng sisihan..

LOOK AT THE BRIGHTER SIDE na lang daw.. everything happens for a reason…

feeling ko basin ako … sinasalo ko si ate ngayon… all the blame’s on me.. ung disappointment and frustration sa paboritong apo’t pamangkin ay pasanin ko… PRESSURE na,. may kasalanan ba ako?!

WALA… so bakit ganun? my tita told me na iexpect ko na talaga ang preaching marathon and pressure… ganun ba kadali yun?!

DAMN… hell na talaga…