being a bitchy bitch helps

Everytime i go home during the weekends, walang makausap sakin ng matino. I always snap and glare at them. I don’t know why im being like this. Nung sembreak naman, di ako ganito. Hai.. Actually, i really felt like crying after i snapped at my sister so walk-out mode ako nung one-time during dinner and locked myself up in my room.
        Inisip ko kung bakit ako nagkakaganito. And OMG! i realized that the pressure that i have been experiencing is going up my head already. problems, stress… sheeet! feeling ko sasabog na ako. Actually, RIGHT NOW, DEPRESSED ako… shet. kanina ko pa gusto umiyak but i can’t ANO YON?! iiyak ako sa CWTS class namin habang nag-dedemo mg SI ng CPR? shet noh. kaderder..
       Bakit ganun? I’ve been wearing a mask for these past few weeks. People around don’t see me as being a sad person. Tawa pa nga ako ng tawa pag nasa school. Buti nga andiyan ang acads so that i don’t have to think about the f***ing problems that has been bothering me.  damn! i really don’t like this feeling.  what should i do?! dammet…
       Ano yon? yung pagiging bitch ko is just a facade para they don’t see the weak side of me? Shet. Tao lang ako. There will always come a point that i won’t be able to handle these problems anymore…

       ANYWAY….. Excited na ako for practice sa INDAKAN! WOOHOO!!! Support IE CLUB! hahahaha… can’t wait to start tomorrow. We’ll be learning the hiphop moves for our routine.. haha…  UPDATE ko kayo if we’ll be needing text votes (like what happened last year).

       YOU! Why suddenly give me the cold shoulder ha?! haha.. its not funny. You’re being like an 8-year old kid. "Ayoko sayo, di tayo batI!" Ganun ba yon?! Ha?! Akala ko iba ka.. Hindi pala. Hah! Totoo nga,,,.. madami ang namamatay sa maling akala. Unlucky me.. Im one of them. (haha.. wlang sense dahil im sure di nia to mababasa!)