the confrontation

got back in Manila… AT LAST!

after 3 days of missing school and being stuck at home doing nothing but surfing the net….

IM HOME…..

but BIGGER problems await me.. haha.. nafifil ko.  i’ll be going home to Laguna this weekend and i have to face my parents…

HELL…. that is how my life is going to be from now on.. i have prepared myself for the preaching marathon na haharapin ko.

my days of FREEDOM is OVER…

my father and my lola have decided na uwian na ako from now on.. my lola and i even had a fight when i got home from naga last thursday morning.. TAKE NOTE: it was 5 in the morning and minumura na ako ng lola ko..

They can’t blame me for what happened to my sister..wag nila akong idamay sa nangyaring katangahan na ginawa ng ate ko… they have decided for my life without my consent.. i know i am still dependent to them but still, matanda na ako. i can think and decide for myself…

I want to blame my sister for what’s happening to me now… GALIT ako sa kaniya.. Because of her, hell is an arm’s reach for me. haha.. actually, hell na mismo ang lumapit at umabot sa akin…

what will my parents say when i get home this saturday?

everytime na lang ba na asa lola ko ako, same speech na lang ang sasabihin sa akin?

I WANT TO HATE HER... pero i can’t … tama nga naman sinabi ng tita ko. anjan na yan. wala ng sisihan..

LOOK AT THE BRIGHTER SIDE na lang daw.. everything happens for a reason…

feeling ko basin ako … sinasalo ko si ate ngayon… all the blame’s on me.. ung disappointment and frustration sa paboritong apo’t pamangkin ay pasanin ko… PRESSURE na,. may kasalanan ba ako?!

WALA… so bakit ganun? my tita told me na iexpect ko na talaga ang preaching marathon and pressure… ganun ba kadali yun?!

DAMN… hell na talaga…

for the playboys.. =)

*sana mabasa niya to. hahahaha..

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A few things to remember before you cheat on a woman

By: Mike Zimmerman

1. When presented with the ideal cheating scenario–that is, if a flying saucer lands in the cornfield where you happen to be standing and a female alien of sinus-clearing hotness slithers down the ramp and declares that she wants to come in peace a minimum of four times in the next hour, and you take her up on it because you know no one will ever find out–no one must ever find out.

2. Someone will always find out.

3. If you get caught, the law is on your wife’s side. And you won’t lose just half of your stuff. The other half–the golf clubs, the surround sound, the Armani–will be destroyed in a spectacular driveway bonfire as every angry woman you know toasts marshmallows shaped like your testicles.

4. And if you’re not married? Your longtime girl is bound by no law.

5. Yes, traveling for business is lonely. Phone home for a bicoastal quickie.

6. Or, to paraphrase Neil Simon, do to yourself what you would otherwise do unto others.

7. If a woman who knows you’re spoken for comes on to you, it’s flattering. It’s tempting. But remember that she’s doing it to feed her own ego, not yours. She wants to see how much power she holds over you. And if you take her bait, she then knows she must be superior in every way to your sweetie. Deep down, she has nothing but contempt for both your male weakness and your mate’s existence. That should really piss you off.

8. According to the Shari’ah, the laws of ancient Islam, adulterers must be stoned to death. Before you say, "Dude, cool," we mean with rocks. In these parts, that’s what will happen to your good name. Friends you made while you were a couple will disappear. Friends you had as a single guy are long gone. That leaves you with the hard drinkers.

9. You’re about to be with the kind of woman who wants to be with the kind of man who would cheat on a woman.

10. Channel all temptation toward the girl you left at home. Example: When out for a night with the boys, go to Hooters, not a strip club or roadhouse. Hooters girls are the unsung heroines of relationship therapy–gorgeous, chatty, and so untouchable that you always go home hungry. Your gal has no idea her sex life will improve tenfold when you get there.

11. At the office party, pretend the coworker who’s flirting with you has gonorrhea.

12. "I’m famous for all the wrong reasons." –Joey Buttafuoco

13. If your ex calls, enjoy a pleasant 5-minute conversation. Then tell her your wife’s on the other line.

14. Treat your temptation as a cage match. Defeating that treacherous organ between your legs is the ultimate triumph of man over nature. It’s you versus your penis. He’s up for the challenge. Are you?

2nd day

still stuck here in Naga…

-woke up
-ate breakfast
-took a bath
-txted pang
-went with my tita sa store nia
-met attorney
-lunch with tito manny (ex ng tita ko)
-went back to the store
-bought medicines for the dog (who had her operation this morning. BREAST CANCER
-got bored….

-had my hair cut

-went home

haaay,,, . gusto ko na umuwi sa laguna…

rocky road

these past few weeks had been hell for me. . stress masyado plus our reltionship was on the rocks. we had a terrible fight that almost led to our break up. haha.,. good thing di natuloy. i had to be patient and understanding to save our relationship. grbe. 3 hours siya manermon.! exag!

im the only one left awake dito. homesick. had to go home in Bicol ng biglaan. emergency, tsk. hope things go well …

indakan update

 feel soooooooo dead tired… we’ve already started practicing for indakan last night. sheeet… it was so frustrating. There were only 2 girls (out of 7)— me and gianna — and 4 boys (out of 7 din). 4 sa indakers eh cheerers din. damn… we only have less than 3 weeks to complete the dance and polish everything.. kulang sa choreographer!!!!!!!!!!! shet…. we have to rush the costumes and everything. buti naman mei storyline na for the songs that they chose. SUGARFREE dude! SUGARFREE! hahahahha… un ung band na pinili. damn. kala ko wolfgang.. sino nga ba ung band na un? cnt remember.. bata p ko nung kapahanunan nila.. hahaha…

im sleepy…. cn’t concentrate in Physics class.. damn. walang pumasok sa isip koo.. BOO! hahaha.. badtrip. Im thinking of cutting econ100.1.. hhaha. Ala naman attendance eh. KAso… i can’t. aahahah… mabait xe kong bata.. haha.. actually i should be on my way to the SE audi by now. haha.. kundi malalate ako!

being a bitchy bitch helps

Everytime i go home during the weekends, walang makausap sakin ng matino. I always snap and glare at them. I don’t know why im being like this. Nung sembreak naman, di ako ganito. Hai.. Actually, i really felt like crying after i snapped at my sister so walk-out mode ako nung one-time during dinner and locked myself up in my room.
        Inisip ko kung bakit ako nagkakaganito. And OMG! i realized that the pressure that i have been experiencing is going up my head already. problems, stress… sheeet! feeling ko sasabog na ako. Actually, RIGHT NOW, DEPRESSED ako… shet. kanina ko pa gusto umiyak but i can’t ANO YON?! iiyak ako sa CWTS class namin habang nag-dedemo mg SI ng CPR? shet noh. kaderder..
       Bakit ganun? I’ve been wearing a mask for these past few weeks. People around don’t see me as being a sad person. Tawa pa nga ako ng tawa pag nasa school. Buti nga andiyan ang acads so that i don’t have to think about the f***ing problems that has been bothering me.  damn! i really don’t like this feeling.  what should i do?! dammet…
       Ano yon? yung pagiging bitch ko is just a facade para they don’t see the weak side of me? Shet. Tao lang ako. There will always come a point that i won’t be able to handle these problems anymore…

       ANYWAY….. Excited na ako for practice sa INDAKAN! WOOHOO!!! Support IE CLUB! hahahaha… can’t wait to start tomorrow. We’ll be learning the hiphop moves for our routine.. haha…  UPDATE ko kayo if we’ll be needing text votes (like what happened last year).

       YOU! Why suddenly give me the cold shoulder ha?! haha.. its not funny. You’re being like an 8-year old kid. "Ayoko sayo, di tayo batI!" Ganun ba yon?! Ha?! Akala ko iba ka.. Hindi pala. Hah! Totoo nga,,,.. madami ang namamatay sa maling akala. Unlucky me.. Im one of them. (haha.. wlang sense dahil im sure di nia to mababasa!)